I can't hate you anymore
Envy
Sometimes, when bad things happen and you envy those who are not affected by the bad things that happened to you, when will stop and appreciate that their problems may be bigger than yours... When will you think you are actually lucky, and be thankful for what u hav?
Sometimes, you have to see a tragedy to happen in front of your eyes before u truly learn to appreciate... But why wait til such a tragedy happen? And even so, how long is it before you make the same mistake again? I guess it's all part of human nature... I shld know it best...
Anyhow, it will be a huge rush for the weeks to come... Race against time... Not sure how much more my heart can hold out... Feel like dying... I've said I wanna go running but I've nv really go find my time... Feel so bad, so out of shape... Haiz...