Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Lies and so much more...
Letting Go
You may need to say good-bye to someone, Jiayu, but the way in which you do so and the reason why you have to are going to decide if you see each other again. If you have fallen out and can't seem to make up, then it may be best to agree to disagree and call it a day. But if you feel that all you need is space and time, then saying good-bye may be more like "see you later." If you let go fully at this time and allow each other the chance to find yourselves and enjoy some freedom, things may be very different when you get back together.
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What my horoscope said to me for this week... I dunno if I should believe it... Maybe... Seems like it's true... I will look forward to the rest of the week... Skipping lessons when I want to, no more worries about presentations...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 4:11 PM
and no one can stop her...
Monday, September 18, 2006
Time is Up
Time to move on...
Time to disappear...
For those who are meant to...
You'll see me again...
For those who I am running from...
Live a good life...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 2:18 PM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Too late...
Splitting headache... But one short post before I sleep...
HRM is 1/2way done... It's been good... But still there's no feeling of relaxing and putting things down... This is a one year journey with no pitstops...
It's sad... Sometimes, u know u're just too late... I saw someone I know carry the bag I really really want... It's always like this... And sometimes I just dunno if I am too late or that I am not meant to get it...
Mad... Unfair... No more bags...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 12:04 AM
and no one can stop her...
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Straightjacket feeling
"Straightjacket Feeling"
Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again
Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away
Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
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Maybe I need this, need to be in a strightjacket... I am sorry...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 6:18 PM
and no one can stop her...
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Envy
Sometimes, when bad things happen and you envy those who are not affected by the bad things that happened to you, when will stop and appreciate that their problems may be bigger than yours... When will you think you are actually lucky, and be thankful for what u hav?
Sometimes, you have to see a tragedy to happen in front of your eyes before u truly learn to appreciate... But why wait til such a tragedy happen? And even so, how long is it before you make the same mistake again? I guess it's all part of human nature... I shld know it best...
Anyhow, it will be a huge rush for the weeks to come... Race against time... Not sure how much more my heart can hold out... Feel like dying... I've said I wanna go running but I've nv really go find my time... Feel so bad, so out of shape... Haiz...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 11:58 PM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Chloe
Watched a bit of smallville last friday... It's been some time since I last watch smallville... Tom Welling is so~ Cute~~!! And so is Kristen Kreuk!!! I love them both and it would be very hard to choose who I love more...
The whole weekend is spent slacking more or less... Though I did my work and all, I always feel it is not enough... I wanna do more, be more efficient... There's always so many things going on that I often multitask... I need to keep up to date with the differents tasks on hand... And it's not easy...
Quiz on next wed... Presentation on friday... I still have the design proj and fyp not touched... So dead! Let's see lor... *cry ah*
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 9:54 PM
and no one can stop her...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
What I wanna say to you...
Artist: Nick lachey
Song: I Can't Hate You Anymore
an empty room can be so deafening,
the silence makes you wanna scream,
it drives you crazy.
i chased away the shadows of your name,
and burn the picture in a frame,
but it couldn't save me.
and how could we quit something we never even tried,
well you still can't tell me why.
we built it up,to watch it fall.
like we meant nothing at all.
i gave and gave the best of me,
but couldn't give you what you need.
you walked away,you stole my life,
just to find what you're looking for.
but no matter how i try,
i can't hate you anymore....
i can't hate you anymore.
you're not the person that you used to be,
the one i want who wanted me,
and that's a shame but,
there's only so many tears that you can cry.
before it changes the life right from your eyes,
and i can't go on that way.
and so i'm letting of everything we were,
it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
we built it up,to watch it fall.
like we meant nothing at all.
i gave and gave the best of me,
but couldn't give you what you need.
you walked away,you stole my life,
just to find what you're looking for.
but no matter how i try,
i can't hate you anymore.
sometimes you hold so tight,
it slips right through your hands.
will i ever understand?
we built it up,to watch it fall.
like we meant nothing at all.
i gave and gave the best of me,
but couldn't give you what you need.
you walked away,you stole my life,
just to find what you're looking for.
but no matter how i try,
i can't hate you anymore.
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 12:46 AM
and no one can stop her...
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Lost
No I am not talking about the TV series... I'm talking about lost, minusing away, gone... Steve Irwin, crocodile hunter, died on the 4th sept 2006. No more shows on kids central on him taking on wildlife as he had.
And good riddance to the one who had wasted my time... 2 years out of the 3 which was supposed to be one greatest part of my life... So thanks for screwing it up over and over again... I guess partly it is my fault... For letting things get out of hand, for being too stupid and can't let go...
I guess it's really time to go... And friends are out of the options... There's nothing else to say... Expectations are high, and there's no backing down... Not even if there's love, esp when there's no trust...
I have to, got to focus on so much more things... School, projects, tutorials, presentations... And I can rely on no one but myself... Be selfish... Give me everything I want... I had been mistreating myself too much...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 9:30 PM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Hurt
Went to my hall play just now... It was cool and I guess i must applaud the cast for having such a successful play... It of course can be better... But for me, I think they are good enough... Almost as good as professional...
Anyway I am feeling hungry now... But since I'm gonna sleep soon... Better not to eat... Somehow there's a pain in the right side of my torso... Oh no... Starting to talk like my forensic prof... Hahaha... Torso...
I know I can never be someone else's princess anymore... I can only be "his"... And now I am only piggy to this one... I guess that means something right? I can never be good enough... Not for him, not for anyone... And it hurts deeply...
Like what I've felt seriously about something else... If you dun wan to or cannot give 100%... Maybe you should give it a miss... Stop being selfish... That is not love... And it will most likely hurt both sides of the party...
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We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more
Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 1:02 AM
and no one can stop her...
Friday, September 01, 2006
Wild Child
The Wild Rose
Colorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.
Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of man. Hoping to gather you up, he flirts and winks and asks you out, ultimately professing his love. Then you make him bleed. Why? Because you're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.
You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. Romance-wise, sex isn't a top priority--a true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective.
The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone.
"You're never truly single as long as you have yourself."
ALWAYS AVOID: The Bachelor
CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail
Your exact opposite:
The Dirty Little Secret
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Found this test on the jed's blog... Cool... Heh heh... When u're free just go do it...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 1:28 AM
and no one can stop her...
