I can't hate you anymore
Get crazy... Drink, dance... Just wanna forget it all... If he don't care then I don't care... What kind of bloody relationship is that?? Whatever it is... I am strong, I can do it... Just like Elle Woods in Legally Blonde... I can do it... It's all determination...
Departure
Leaving is always sad... Saying goodbye's not something that's fabulous... I often find myself saying goodbye too much... I had no choice... "Theres no easy way to say good bye so baby just say good night..." - Lyrics from say goodnight by the click five...
The whole weekend sucked... I guess the past month had sucked and it just rolled over, get suckier and suckier... Just like a snowball that built up... Life stinks...
"Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time with,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Can't help listening to this song... Feeling really really bad... I really really miss him... But I am not a weakling coz it is really unfair that he should just leave without letting me know anything... I am not some airhead whose feelings he can just toy around with... I care and I can say I truly do... A lot!
So now I am just staring at this picture... The 1st time I knew him... Trying to figure out what is it that he was attracted to at the beginning... Or was it just a fraud? Thanx to Ben who IRed it to me yesterday...
I feel really really bad... So bad it drove me to drink... Initially planned to head out to Zouk... In the end went down to Rouge instead... Not too bad... Drank abit... I really really think beer is not that nice... I prefer liquor instead... Shots even better... Met Vincent the camera guy... Hahaha... Took a pic with carrie... Will upload it up when I get it...