Ok... Maybe that was abit too exaggerating... But that's how I feel... So tiring... A most inconvenient time for camp...
Sometimes it just hurts... I guess you dunno what I mean... Not so sure if you know that about yourself... Maybe you're just you and that no matter what happens, you won't know how much it hurts even if someone mentioned it... Happened once, twice and many many times... Time and time after I brush it off and treat it like normal... I can't help it...
I hate being normal... Why am I not so rich I dun have to worry about money or work while I am studying? And yet I am not that poor that I can apply for financial help from outside?? Pissed off coz I am stuck in the middle... Neither rich nor poor, neither here nor there... Haiz...
Adopting a cat soon... A black cat with yellow eyes... So cute... Still a kitten... A boy boy... Hope I am less scared of carrying it... Busy trying to get collar and food for it... Will take some pictures at 1st chance...
Gotta go prepare to go back to school... See Loaf!!!
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 4:26 PM
and no one can stop her...
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Dust *Ah-choo~!!!*
I know it has been so so so super long since I last updated my blog!!! Been super busy with post-camp stuff (for Insinyur) and pre-camp stuff (for Hall Camp)... Plus the fact that I have to settle my hostel stuff... (Which I've been doing today...)
Paid for my hall acceptance fee ($320!!!) collected the keys and shifted more than half the stuff over... My nose got irritated all the way!!! And can't help sneezing... And as if a tap is running non-stop, so did my nose...
Now finally a time to rest... Til tml morning when I have to shift again and again and again... Will be busy since hall camp is coming up the coming tuesday... So probably won't update as regularly as I want to...
So as not to let u miss me too much, here's something for you to enjoy...
Lovely picture or not, you be the judge... I just like it coz it's me... :P
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 1:38 AM
and no one can stop her...
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Shagged out
So tired... Hahaha... The 4th day of camp went past... Seems short most of the time though there are times where it is unbearable long... Camp is always fun so never try to be serious all the time...
Slept in the pavilion after the campfire last night... Guess I am so tired that I fell asleep without bothering about whether the ground is hard or not... Though a number of times I woke up with stiff joints and feeling cold, I just try to go back to sleep... I am now falling asleep... But there's still the important INITIATION!!!
Hope I can go back earlier to rest... Tml is SP nite... Hope to have fun...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 10:47 PM
and no one can stop her...
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Alone... This time...
Insinyur Seniors Camp ends today... And real torture comes on 17th July... When camp starts...
Finally, the banner is done!! And hung up... I hope nothing went wrong or else... Can cry ah~~!!!!
Now I just have to finish up updating the website for Insinyur and also Hall 7... Though they haven't given me much material to work with... How to make website lidat??!! I am still waiting...
Now cooling down coz I walked from Hall 15 to Hall 7... One end of NTU to the other... OMG!!! Probably head down to the showers then do the laundry... And then work lor... Must manage time well since I need to pack for camp too...
Haiz... Just rest... I have less than 24 hrs to freedom... Next update after the camp... Dun think I can do so in between...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 11:01 PM
and no one can stop her...
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
I just wanna sleep...
Finally FINALLY I have finished my report and also done with the supervisor visit... I am so happy!!! But it is not that good as I feel so sick...
Had been sick yesterday and went down to the school's medical center to check it out... The doctor said that I have to cut down on my caffeine intake as well as the acidic food such as oranges...
Seems like I have excess stomach acids and they are rushing up my throat, causing the bad sore throat I have for the past 2/3 weeks... Boy am I glad to find the problem behind the soreness... But it is so sad that I can no longer indulge in Starbucks and drink teh bing... Haiz... For now...
Anyway, I am taking my medicine regularly... But now I feel sleepy... Camp is starting real soon... I am gonna start preparing for camp and finish updating the websites... I also need to get a dress!!! Hmmm... what a rush... Have a good night sleep 1st... It is more important...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 10:29 PM
and no one can stop her...
Saturday, July 08, 2006
In Deep Shit
I am supposed to hand in the report in 2 days time... And it is not done... AT ALL!!!
Now I am watching My Name Is Earl, and feeling sleepy again... Hahahaha... How?? Haiz...
Watching the anime Keroro Gunso... It is so cute and funny... Whenever I watch it though, it reminds me of someone, who in turns remind me of someone else... Anyway... heard they left... Relieved? Maybe...
Having this really bad headache for most part of the day... I really feel very sick... I dunno how to lie through this report... Plus I feel like sleeping now... Die lah!!!
Anyway was at PS... Saw that the biggest KitKat is for real... Cool... Chocolate is cure!!! Hahaha... But I am so heaty I have ulcers and pimples... I wanna get my room now!!!
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 10:11 PM
and no one can stop her...
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
I'm cold...
Nice snow... Though Singapore will never have snow... But one can still dream right?
I guess that coldness will make me think about the past...
Not over it yet... Trying to...
I get so tired everyday... Even if I slept enough... I can't rest my mind at night... Keeping asking why... My fault? Or just not meant to be? Sometimes, love alone is not enough... Like one said, you can't survive on love like you do on bread...
I really dunno what's wrong with me... Guess I am going into the "sleeping therapy" again... When I sleep and go into another world created by my brain... A much better world and I decide to stay there... I start falling asleep at 11... Unbelievable... Even now...
So I guess I shld go... Bought a new toy... The 20 qns game... Cool...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 10:43 PM
and no one can stop her...
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Songs that touched... (Part 1)
爱的故事有很多
你一定听过
她们说
最美的爱情像湖泊
美的忍不住停留
而任性的风
吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落
放开手往北方走
留下伤心的树独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁
看今夜的流星
划过了天际
笑我的心
我无法再冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里
ai de gu shi you hen duo
ni yi ding ting guo
ta men shuo
zui mei de ai qing xiang hu po
mei de ren bu zhu ting liu
er ren xing de feng
chui guo le
que piao xia yi pian pian ye luo
fang kai shou wang bei fang zou
liu xia sang xin de shu du zhi ren shou
ni li kai wo lian yi ju hua dou bu shuo
zhi mo mo kan zhe jin wan tian kong xin guang shan shuo
kan jin ye de liu xing
hua guo le tian ji
xiao wo de xin
wo wu fai zai le jing
qing ni yao jing ting
ni shi wo de wei yi
wo bu yuan qu xiang xin
wo men zhi jian
ge zhe hai yang de ju li
wo de ai
yi rong hua zai kong qi li
This is one of the nicest songs I am hearing now... This is what it means...
So many love stories out there, you must have heard of.
People mentioned that the most beautiful love is just like lake,
So beautiful that they just stopped and looked...
But the strong wind start blowing
And all that's left are leaves drifting down slowly...
Let go the hand and head to the north.
The sad tree is left to bear all loneliness.
You left me without a single word,
I stared at the sky filled with stars silently tonight.
Saw shooting stars flying across the vast sky,
Laughing at me and my broken heart.
I can't calm down
Please understand that you're my only love.
I don't want this distance, as wide as oceans,
standing between us.
My love is evaporating into the atmosphere without you...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 9:00 PM
and no one can stop her...
Monday, July 03, 2006
It's Over...
Shocked to the point of disbelief, Evolving into a numbing pain... The happy memories spiralled into the black hole, Never to surface again...
Tears can't be formed, Cold invades the once warm body... Time just stopped and keep going back to the minute, The minute you died...
Life's no longer bright, But the stars still shine... Lighting up your way up to the skies, To a place you can rest and wait for me...
Meantime you'll be safe in my heart, I won't chase you away... For you mean the world to me, Now, always and forever...
Kaylin aka Jiayu
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 9:34 PM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Departure
Leaving is always sad... Saying goodbye's not something that's fabulous... I often find myself saying goodbye too much... I had no choice... "Theres no easy way to say good bye so baby just say good night..." - Lyrics from say goodnight by the click five...
The whole weekend sucked... I guess the past month had sucked and it just rolled over, get suckier and suckier... Just like a snowball that built up... Life stinks...
"Where'd you go?" I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone.
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time with, Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind, I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way, You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up, That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Can't help listening to this song... Feeling really really bad... I really really miss him... But I am not a weakling coz it is really unfair that he should just leave without letting me know anything... I am not some airhead whose feelings he can just toy around with... I care and I can say I truly do... A lot!
So now I am just staring at this picture... The 1st time I knew him... Trying to figure out what is it that he was attracted to at the beginning... Or was it just a fraud? Thanx to Ben who IRed it to me yesterday...
I feel really really bad... So bad it drove me to drink... Initially planned to head out to Zouk... In the end went down to Rouge instead... Not too bad... Drank abit... I really really think beer is not that nice... I prefer liquor instead... Shots even better... Met Vincent the camera guy... Hahaha... Took a pic with carrie... Will upload it up when I get it...
Get crazy... Drink, dance... Just wanna forget it all... If he don't care then I don't care... What kind of bloody relationship is that?? Whatever it is... I am strong, I can do it... Just like Elle Woods in Legally Blonde... I can do it... It's all determination...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 6:59 PM
and no one can stop her...
