I can't hate you anymore
Alone... In this world...
Yes I am sorry... But seems like it is all too late... In no mood for anything... I am thinning down... To the point that a demin skirt which was bought not too long ago can be slid off without having to be unbuttoned...
Yes i miss him... But what to do... He no longer wants me anymore... I guess he has decided I am not worth it... There are better gals out there... I also know I can't just let go like this... I guess I can slowly let go... Or try to... But now it is not working...
I can't sleep well. No appetite too... Haiz... I wanna go running so badly... But weather so cold and my bed looks so snuggly... I am back to my illness "sleeping avoidance"... I wish... I can't do that at home... Can't let my heart heal...
Headache plagues me every night... I can only bear with it... Cramps and everything... Oh... help... I wanna do rebonding... And soon... Slim down too... Be my best...