I can't hate you anymore
Taking a brave step out
My status has been undefined for the longest period of time... Seems to me like I've lost my powers and ability to move on... I hope not... I've decided to go on living my life for myself... I know it may be tough on me... That by the time can 3 closes and I have to go far away for food, I will be alone...
But I guess this is what I have to learn... How to survive with myself... Alone...
No tuition later... My student called me earlier to inform me... For those who doesn't know, my student is actually my cousin... A very good student I may add... Improve greatly and meets my expectation... I miss the times teaching her...
Was planning my single future ahead of me... Feeling sad about the loss and many other things I will miss... Feeling the tears rushed to my eyes (yes, even now... But they won't fall...). I watched Mulan on chn 5 just now... I saw the lips of one of the male characters, Sheng. He is the one who Mulan fell in love with I think, her captain... It just reminds me of the shapeless lips of him who I missed... And yes I am sad...
I am strong... I will go on living my life... With or without him... I will survive... For myself...