I can't hate you anymore
Day Outing
Just came home and showered... It has been terribly humid these few days... I can't do anything without feeling hot and irritated... Wearing as skimpy as I can doesn't work as well... I can sit in my room and yet feel hot...
On my way back, on the train, I saw this group of 4 friends sitting down, 2 males and 2 females... Nothing looked weird on the surface... Until I noticed one of the girls was wearing a pair of big ugly slippers that did not really match her clothings... I looked at the feet of the guys and saw that one of them was bare feet...
What surprises me more is that the bare-feet guy seem more like the bf of the other girl... Perhaps they were siblings but I was not sure... The train approaches their station and I thought she would request for her shoes but they actually got off with the guy without his shoes... I pity the poor guy... I thought I will only see this kind of scenario in shows... Just like the part in my sassy girl... I guess it's lucky that the guy din have to wear the girl's shoes as well... Haha...
I am watching rumbling hearts again... The girl's up now... I really wonder what will happen in the end... It just leads to me thinking back to what's happening to me... That if it's stupid for me to stay somewhere because I want to believe there is something that might not be... That it's only one-sided on my part...
I know I can't even move on if I want to... That all I am doing is waiting for him to move on then I will go... And all he does is hang around, enticing me but yet I can't get him totally... Depressed and sad... No one to turn to... I am desperate... And true unpleasant thoughts just keep flashing through my mind... I miss you...