Wednesday, November 30, 2005
I still wanna sleep!!!
Slept over at his place... What does that mean?? Ask him to stop contacting me now or never leave me... He's still messaging me... What does that mean?? I am puzzled, confused and so sleepy... Still got camp later... Die...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 10:19 AM
and no one can stop her...
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
My Fate, Your Fate, His Fate...
Today, time will freeze and even seem to go backwards. Use this pause to reflect on your motivations. The zodiacal clues seem to suggest that you're currently settling questions that concern the fate of another person. Perhaps you should be spending an equal amount of time considering your own fate as well...
This is my horoscope for today... In the midst of choir camp... I am now so tired... Feel like sleeping... Too bad he din offer his bed... I shall just rest for a while then go down...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 2:39 PM
and no one can stop her...
Slack only...
I can't believe I slacked one day away... Had a meeting in the morning... For the engine camp next semester... And that was it... I felt so much like I had nothing to do to the point I wanted to pick up my books and start studying again... Hahahaha... Abit crazy I feel...
This song by Andy Lau is super nice... Dunno if can see properly... My favourite line is this... I am feeling this now...
Feeling not so good in hall now... Probably cause I feel so lost... I have no idea what to do, what to look forward to any longer... I am afraid... Drawing strength and courage from songs now...
I guess I will not stay in hall unless necessary then... It's bad... I miss my home where there are people around always... Now here, I am lonely, afraid and alone... What there was in the past was someone to share my time with me... Now there's no one...
I think I might want to shift home, shift hall... Many many thoughts...
My roommate brought 3 friends back when I was sleeping last night... They made so much noise.... At 3+ in the morning til 5+... And I have an early meeting... Was so tired... Luckily I got to sleep in the evening when she go out... I am going to sleep now again... It's choir camp!! Yeah... Hope she will just come back quietly...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 12:54 AM
and no one can stop her...
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Kimi ga Nozomu Eien
I went home last night and watched this anime on arts central... It totally blew me away... It's so sad... A love story unfolds... But tragedy striked in the end... I will get the VCDs for it... Fourteen episodes... Shouldn't be so expensive...
I could only thought of one thing... She died waiting for him...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 9:46 PM
and no one can stop her...
Goodbyes
Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire yesterday... Was touched at the part when Hermione said something about things are not going to be the same again... How true it sounds now as I know things are not gonna be the same for me...
Can't believe how much I put myself through but yet, ultimately I don't get what I want... Life is unfair, to the point of cruelty to me... Sometimes I really wonder, is happiness doing something to please yourself? Or is it doing something to please others which would then make you happy? What if it is both and yet you can't do both?
Is that when happiness ends and when sadness starts? I guess not... All that happens is that one unit will become two separate entities which will survive on its own...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 12:23 PM
and no one can stop her...
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Exams are over... For now...
Finally the last paper was taken and I came out of it alive... I am not so sure about my results though.... Know that this is not the best semester for me... Came back and start gaming for all I want but feeling so empty all the same... Now sitting here in front of my computer writing in a blog I know no one will read...
My best friend ask me out, I said yes though it will be just a rushed shower then off I go... But she suddenly pulled a stunt on me... Was supposed to go JP with him too... He also backed off last minute though he was the one who initiated it... (I wondered why...) I am pissed... Yes I am... Aaron asked me out but I just think it is too far... Maybe saturday...
Now, stuck in hall, no where to go, no one to talk to... I live a boring life... Maybe I should just hide in my room and dig a hole... I am sad coz this is a sad life I am living... With no goals I can achieve... But mostly I am just pitying myself...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 6:27 PM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Late Night Show
Hahahaha... It's now 4.40am in the morning... But I just came back from studying... Not tired... Just having a headache so I came back to sleep... Feel alright I guess... Studying going alright... But my heart is just getting more dead every minute...
Well, crying and laughing together just doesn't go... But when the heart is so broken to a point that it cannot decipher between the right emotions to go to, I think is quite serious... I think I've reached the point that I can laugh and cry at the same time and seriously, I feel at that point I was losing control of everything and I will turn crazy any moment...
But luckily I managed to grab my strings of control and stop myself... Before I turn crazy and have to go to IMH... Hahahaha... Time to sleep anyhow and wake up tml again to study... A crazy night... Towards a crazier dawn...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 4:40 AM
and no one can stop her...
Friday, November 18, 2005
Two more to go...
I am depressed... I just don't understand what's the purpose of these exams after exams where students just cramp all the things they learnt in 3 1/2 months and bring it out on a few pieces of paper and then forget all of it after that... Is that called learning??
I am mentally shagged but I still have 2 more papers to go... Just came back from PS and there are too many people around... Noisy smelly people who just dunno they are pesty... Going to sleep... There's nothing here for me to stay...
Spoilt my lipstick and I am sad... It's a new lipstick... The stupid cover came off and my comb pierced my lipstick... Gross... I am tired... Will sleep now... I hate the world... I wish things were simple and uncomplicated... Thought things will be better but they are not...
I will leave... I know I have to... There's no point staying... Too much happened... Too much misunderstanding... No time to solve them... I dun wanna be the one caught in the middle... So I'll just go... And hopefully be happy...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 11:50 PM
and no one can stop her...
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Failure...
In every relationship, there is always this someone who will try to ruin it... For some unfortunate ones, there's more than a someone... In my every relationship, there is always one girl who made things bad between us... I know it's lame to blame the failure of my relationships on other people... But what I dun get is that WHY??
I hate it being this way... But it has to be the way it is... I've said I will leave... I think I should... Though things maybe pleasant now, I am not sure it will get better... I am too tired to try... I am too unsure to go on... I know I am selfish... I can try not to be... But to share more than I receive is not my style...
In her bloody blog, most pics of him is posted compared to any other guys... Is that what friends do?? Post pictures of someone you know your bf is jealous of just to piss him more... I guess so right.... Fuck it Miss Have-It-All... Just because you're born lucky doesn't mean you can take happiness away from others...
I am not gonna be done with this... I am studying now... I'm just getting this off my chest then I will study more... I swear if she pissed me more, I will do some serious damage... There's no saving you....
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 12:00 PM
and no one can stop her...
Monday, November 14, 2005
Munching on Munchinis
Suddenly got so hungry... But no worries for I had restocked over the weekend for this hard period of mine... Just discovered this fantastic website... You guys must really go and visit this website... http://www.illwillpress.com It has the most hilarious flash clips ever... Laughing my head off at the tiny squirrel which talked like after inhaling helium... Geez....
Anyway here my weekly horoscope enlightening me for the week to come... Hmmm... Very interesting....
Going Within
Mercury turns retrograde in Sagittarius on Monday, Jiayu, but its effect may not be quite as obvious in this sector of the chart as it is in others. In the twelfth solar house you may find that strange coincidences become even stranger, and that there seems to be no logic to the way events are coming together. Bide your time and go with the flow, as you may stumble upon a few revelations in the process. Dare to follow the signs and signals that come your way, as they could lead you somewhere very interesting. The second event this week is a Full Moon in Taurus on Tuesday which is going to fall in your love and romance zone. Whatever you do, don't react to the intense feeling that may come up for you at this time. You may start a new affair on the spur of the moment and then live to regret it later on. If you can wait, do so, as it may bring you additional insight. Mars is still causing a problem for your love life as you seem temporarily destined to travel over old ground. Keep working at any unfinished business. Mars will square Saturn on Friday which could be very frustrating. If you can hold out you may be rewarded.
Congratulations to Blogger for getting their site back to normal again... Ok... Time to hit the books... I still can't get my snow to work... But no worries... It will be back soon... Sayonara...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 1:35 AM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Haiz...
I am pissed with Blogger for losing my posts... I am frustrated with my studies... I hate studying in NTU... There's no way I can do a 3 chain papers... I've wasted my time here... I will concentrate now... Fun comes later... I promise myself no more maplestory... Just study til I turn white...
Enjoy my new template then....
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 1:18 PM
and no one can stop her...
Yeah... Like Real
Blogger sucks and I cannot put any blogs in now....
Date of Birth: 12/31
You may feel a mixture of frustration and loneliness today, Jiayu. All you want is to spend a quiet evening with the romantic partner in your life, whom you cannot find anywhere. With planes coming in late and rush hour traffic being especially bad there is no way of connecting. Neither pager nor cell phone are any help today. He may as well be on the moon. Take heart, Jiayu, and know that he is missing you just as much. When you eventually do reconnect, it will be an electric reunion indeed.
Going to shower now...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 12:42 AM
and no one can stop her...
Friday, November 11, 2005
Blogger.com lost my posts...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 9:13 AM
and no one can stop her...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
DblO or DblOs??
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 8:35 PM
and no one can stop her...
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Miss-understood
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 3:40 PM
and no one can stop her...
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Sunday Studies
Doing circuit analysis questions... Simply dun understand why the answers I get is so different from the given answers... I really feel my method is right... Haiz... Shall look through again... Going back to hall tonite... Wanted to go back tomorrow instead but I think I better study in hall...
Shall not touch Maplestory... It will only distract me... I guess I will study in the tutorial rooms... If invited... Hopefully it will work... I cannot fail this time...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 2:40 PM
and no one can stop her...
Friday, November 04, 2005
Thursday or Friday...
Thursday or Friday? That is the question... The super blur me thought that today was still Thursday... It is so unbelievable.... haiz... But it's ok... I will just study and live a boring life... I still cannot get over it... It is Friday today...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 10:54 PM
and no one can stop her...
Integrated Electronics
I'm finally making sense of integrated electronics... Only the beginning... Really hope the paper will be alright... Dun wanna blog too much... Save some time to study... Today I am gonna study hard... Made some jelly... Shall enjoy it later... Haven't decide if I wanna share... My favourite jelly...
Sugar... Not good for body... Causes water retention as they are not natural sugar... Can cause headaches too... No one to lunch with... Boring... Not very hungry... Shall not eat then... Maybe just have dinner tonight... Feel greedy after yesterday's 3 full meals... Today's detox day then...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 11:15 AM
and no one can stop her...
Thursday, November 03, 2005
After the First Paper
The first paper is over... And I knew the instant I came out of the exam hall I will be back to take this module... Mentally drained and physically ill... I can only look on... Now I can only study the upcoming modules... And not look back... That's what I will do...
Haiz... Feeling like as if a fever is coming... Better take more vit C now... Hahaha.... Last minute again as usual... Gonna shower now though it is raining but it is so humid I cannot take it.... Everyday's like that... Hopefully I will be more awake after I shower... If not, I also cannot sleep coz my kind roommate is playing her songs loud again...
Going into the shower to replenish my energy again... Being a capricorn, water can help with your energies... I seriously believe in it... Anyway it works for me too... So I shall not complain... Signing off for a rendezvous with shower...
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 1:30 PM
and no one can stop her...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Studying for exams now... Tml will be my first paper... Abit scary considering the fact that I am still studying for it.... Haven't had anything to eat since 5+ last night... Now having salmon spread with bread... Hope it will last me til some time...
Anyway, quite disappointing today have no one to eat with me... Plus I won't get the whole room to study in by myself... But I will be studying very hard today... Directly after writing in my blog, I am going to study liao.... Must concentrate......
Anyway, thanx to all my frens who cares about me.... Msged me to chitchat and relax... Hahahaha.... Appreciate it so much... You guys study hard too ok?? Love you guys... (you know what I mean lah...)
Kaylin the Kitten says @ 3:40 AM
and no one can stop her...
I can't believe I slacked one day away... Had a meeting in the morning... For the engine camp next semester... And that was it... I felt so much like I had nothing to do to the point I wanted to pick up my books and start studying again... Hahahaha... Abit crazy I feel...